Original Soliloquy

[Enter Alaska Young, driving drunk, head on to another car]

[The car is 50 ft away]

Maybe I should go back, turn around and fall asleep like this never happened.

Like I never cheated on Jake, forgot her birthday and never killed her.

[The car is 40 ft away]

But I can’t make myself hit the brakes or turn the wheel.

What’s wrong with me?

Maybe it’s the alcohol?

No, I’m just a huge train wreck.

Alcohol has nothing to do with my incompetence.

I mess up everything I touch, I can’t do anything right-

I can’t even kill myself properly.

[The car is 30 feet away]

This is for the best, I deserve to die.

I killed her, I may as well be a 6 year old murderer.

I just sat there watching her head explode.

I was frozen, paralyzed with fear.

But even murderers follow through with their killing.

I mess up everything I touch, I can’t do anything right.

[The car is 20 feet away].

This is for the best, I deserve to die.

Straight and fast,

straight and fast will free me from the labyrinth.

[The car is 15 feet away.]

But her death wasn’t straight and fast,

Her death was long and agonizing,

her head overflowing with blood.

[The car is 10 feet away]

But now, I’m sitting here.

Paralyzed, but not with fear-

with the promise of letting go.

[The car crashes into Alaska Young, killing her instantly.]